What am I doing online? I should be studying. Yea, whatever, I'll feel guilty later.

You know, its been 6 months. That's half a year. Which is 1/36 of my life thus far. But if there's one big lesson learnt from these months, it'll be to count the blessings I have, rather than resent the misfortunes. Or rather the mistakes I've made that came back to kick me (really hard) in the ass. Tsk. Why the sudden philosophy? Cos that three days that I was sick, studying went out of the window, and I finally had some time to think things over.

You know how some things affect people really badly, while it doesn't even register to some? You feel like you're going nuts inside, you feel like you've just let about the most important things to you slip right out of your hands. Oddly enough, the first Dharma lesson I ever had as a kid answered that question. The idea that a guitar string, when wound too tightly would just snap, but if wound too loosely, it'll sound like crap. Its been easy telling myself its everyone else's fault, and then its been hard to keep telling myself its all my fault. And I still recall what Ms Tan said, at the end of the day, no one cares what happens to the guitar, the main aim is to get the right sound out.

And just thinking back on how these 6 months has been. Well, I guess everyone's happy now. That's all that matters right now. Getting through this final lap. Then, we start all over. Loss? nah, I walked into this almost 2 years ago without any of this, and I couldn't have asked for anymore. its been quite a ride, loads of downs, but hey, the ups were way high up.

Okay. End of post. Time to get outta me-mode, and get my ass back to study-mode. 4th December, you better freaking hurry up.

What's the point? You'll never see this anyway.