Maybe, just maybe, everything that's been haunting me is just a reminder that being able to live with myself is more important than happiness.

But then again, if I should be glad that I can live with myself.

And I guess the one thing I've learnt, there's really no point in pretending you're happy when there's this nagging feeling in you. And its not my problem if people can't accept that you need to deal with it your way to be able to live with it.

Right or wrong, does it matter? After all, people come and go, but the one person that will always stay to haunt you is yourself. Imagine, you not being able to live with yourself. Makes solitude seems so much more appealing.

But then again, I ain't alone. =)

Beckett was right. People are bloody ignorant apes.

Hit me.

Okay, kidding. Prelims are like freaking two days away for me. 2 more months, dammit, 2 more months.

"Inwardbound" just added me as a friend on Facebook. Figured its probably thomas since he's a trainer there. Which kinda makes me jealous. Here I am, mugging my arse off for A Levels, and there he is doing what he loves. Tsk.

And yea, wanted to blog cos I need to rant. This idiot of lizard dropped onto my lap and leaped off onto the road today. Lucky for it, no car ran over it. Talk about perfect timing.

I shall take that as a positive sign for my prelims =)

My god, I'm truly delusional.

And I hit the highway..

Studying out with Josh was strangely productive in a non-academic way. Half a math paper, 13Chem MCQs and one failed attempt at a Greek essay outline later, and we reverted to our good ol' ways. (Hey, at least I know what I'm gonna get)

Seeing Bern and Ms Hua and Ms Saras certainly added to the good stuff that day. Marc looks so darn big now, makes me feel so goddamn old. And seeing Hilary pretend to be scared of me, can't help but feel grateful for those 4 years of my life.

Did I mention about prata with the old gang? Gosh, I still remember how we managed to disturb even those in the obscurest of corners.

Oh and that letter + candy cane in my cube. Can't help but feel that warm fuzzy feeling inside, and how it really made all those battles worth it.

Plus mugging with everyone on Thursday. Which made me realized all this while, I never really fought those battles alone.

And somehow, today felt like a message from somewhere, that it ain't over yet. Its like you finally found that loose plug and at long last rammed it back where it belongs.

Perfect. I like :)