Okay, this is it. 8 days away from what I've been working towards to for the past 2 years. Okay, I'm lying, more like past 3 months.

And yea, been blog hopping after the mind-draining session today. Read some things that made me smile, some mad me frown. The scariest thing about being happy with what you have is that life might just take it away from you. But just recently, someone just reminded me how some things will never change. Yeaps, I can safely conclude the bonds formed from those 4 years can and will survive the test of time. And for those that didn't, there's always superglue.

And random quote I blurted out yesterday: "The last time I ran was after the bus." I need to get my butt back into shape.

Doing a lil' self-assessment helps once in a while. And for the first time in my life, I kinda regret choosing VJ over say, SAJC or CJC. Sure, TSD was awesome, Council was fun while it lasted, but its such a dog-eat-dog world there. Kill, or be killed, and I unknowingly played that game. And hearing Josh tell me about all the chances he gets, cos he didnt make my decision, I can't help but wonder, maybe I'd be better off somewhere else.

And my 5 minutes of self-indulgence is over. Cos you can't turn back time, but you certainly can make tomorrow a little easier for yourself. I mean, c'mon, why hold a grudge for things done wrong, when you can just appreciate things done right.

Oh, and ignoring each other ain't gonna help things you know?

What am I doing online? I should be studying. Yea, whatever, I'll feel guilty later.

You know, its been 6 months. That's half a year. Which is 1/36 of my life thus far. But if there's one big lesson learnt from these months, it'll be to count the blessings I have, rather than resent the misfortunes. Or rather the mistakes I've made that came back to kick me (really hard) in the ass. Tsk. Why the sudden philosophy? Cos that three days that I was sick, studying went out of the window, and I finally had some time to think things over.

You know how some things affect people really badly, while it doesn't even register to some? You feel like you're going nuts inside, you feel like you've just let about the most important things to you slip right out of your hands. Oddly enough, the first Dharma lesson I ever had as a kid answered that question. The idea that a guitar string, when wound too tightly would just snap, but if wound too loosely, it'll sound like crap. Its been easy telling myself its everyone else's fault, and then its been hard to keep telling myself its all my fault. And I still recall what Ms Tan said, at the end of the day, no one cares what happens to the guitar, the main aim is to get the right sound out.

And just thinking back on how these 6 months has been. Well, I guess everyone's happy now. That's all that matters right now. Getting through this final lap. Then, we start all over. Loss? nah, I walked into this almost 2 years ago without any of this, and I couldn't have asked for anymore. its been quite a ride, loads of downs, but hey, the ups were way high up.

Okay. End of post. Time to get outta me-mode, and get my ass back to study-mode. 4th December, you better freaking hurry up.

What's the point? You'll never see this anyway.

Whoa. Its over. Somehow, it isn't the same as cat high, but still awesome nonetheless.

And yea, even though only some of them know of the existence of this blog, just a lil' shoutout to a group of really awesome awesome awesome people!

Yeaps, 08S43!! Dang, what was I thinking, only when there's about 2 months left then I started to get reacquainted with the class. =(.

But hey, thanks for being there during the low periods of my VJ life this year, especially to Celeste & Xuan Yi.

And Mrs Koh for being the best CT any JC kid can ever ask for.

And to my awesomest classmate ever, Sweej! (who is secretly pretty sexy!)

and to my lovely juniors for organizing farewell and Open House, and hanging out wimme!

and to my fellow councillors, especially Xiaowei, for all those mass dance mania!

and to my TSD peeps, esp Sandy & Esti!

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Well, looking at the photos, huge mix of feelings.

Especially the one of S43 during PAE period. Ironically, the first and last class photo looks awfully alike.

And I came across this photo. And reading the comments, you know, cant help but feel that tinge of regret, for what could have been. I mean, the look they give now is just.. Need we always take things to the extreme?

And then the stupid nolstagic side of me when to surf those photos and past conversations. And to think now all we can manage is a weak "Hi!" and "Cya!".

But then I watched the carpet video, and the closet mugger video. And I saw the hippo+bear photo Celeste and I took at the start of last year. And I remembered XY and I sharing that bowl of porridge. And I looked at the photos/messages from the juniors. One word: happy =)

And I think of the plans I have with Shaun, Josh, Andrew after the accursed As are over. And the plans with the class, TSD and maybe council.

And i just tell myself, we can all work things out eventually.

And when I heard about that thing. A little twinge of sadness. But hey, I know they'll make it through. Or at least with less damage.

Dude, time to let go...