Awesome, 2009, possibly the worst year of my life, is finally over. Fuck yea!

Still, there were little moments in 2009 that made it memorable. TSD slots, Orientation, crashing andrew's place to study, pre and post prom (and not actual prom). So, my top 10 moments in 2009?

10) Andrew's surprise party, where he nearly came down in god-forbid-me-to-say.
9) Knowing what celeste, and s43 had actually done for me.
8) Water baby fight with sandy and xiaowei
7) Pseudo post A celebrations with Andrew and Andrea at Dempsey B&Js
6) 4th December, 11.00am, staring at Eva take half an eternity to tie her papers together.
5) Emo-talking with that special someone on my birthday.
4) The shock when I realized we were less than 10 days away from Orientation 2009
3) Dinner with Josh, Andrew and Bern =)
2) Crazy post-prom party
1) Running away from Fountain of Wealth with O1 adhoc right after mass dance ended, conveniently ps-ing all the other councillors.

Yeaps, magical moments that kept me sane last year. Feels good to say last year. LAST YEAR LAST YEAR LAST YEAR. Well, too many things have happened in 2009. One big major fat ass conflict, one out-of-proportioned split, one emotional wreck, one epicly draining rescue later, and I'm still standing, although barely.

Had the week to slowly think things through. Yea, things seem better now that there's been 6 months for things to chill. But these 6 months told me something else, that it's just not meant to be. These 6 months told me, hoping things would be the same, is impossible. So stop deluding yourself. Its more like rediscovering a side that you once knew, but you know its still out of reach. And the most important thing that these 6 months told me, is that its about time I stop acting as though it was okay, cos it wasn't.

But hey, don't we all know marraige is a screwed institution?

And slowly, I realize that doesnt just apply to what happened at home, but everything to me. Dammit, Andrew Tan Zi Jie, get back to Singapore asap, best friend in need here.

Oh well, my only new year resolution is to throw all the unhappy things that happened away, and start 2010 afresh. And yea, I never thought I'd say this, I don't know if they'll ever read it, but to Kenrick and Katharine, sorry for everything that happened, i just hope things are still cool. *insert weak smile here*

And so, kiss fucking 2009 goodbye.
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and special shoutout to sandy, esti, xiaowei and andrew for keeping me sane for the whole of last year!