Okay. A really late post while waiting for my korean show to start & I secretly know I'm going to die at work tomorrow.

Suddenly I feel so detached from the world. its like work, home, sleep, work, home, sleep. Gosh. And I'm thoroughly bushed at the end of each day.

And just wanted to rant about some inner angst about the impression people have of temp staff. Especially for students who work temp jobs. My god. The amount of judgement you receive when people know you're a student. stupid customers. maybe like what alex said, no one else will ever understand the shit you go through. I mean, just cos we're temp/students doesn't mean we suck. Hello, i believe my colleagues and i give better service than a lot of the permanent staff out there. And the worst thing is, just because you're lucky/insensible enough to deny yourself a taste of what regular adults go through, while signing up for internships/slack at home while your family supports you, doesnt make you better than the others. Hate it when people use their better financial status to judge others. Its going through full-time of such things that i realized why working experience is so impt. So those rich kids out there can continue deluding themselves that their purchased internship/education will secure them a good life.

Okay, inner angst released. Now I'm a happier person. Honestly, thank goodness i took up this job. Sucky I know. But the stuff I've learnt is so much more. Most importantly, I figured, the most important thing a person can do is to be human first, and customer second. I guess everyone is so caught up trying to be an effective customer that they all forgot they're human.

And thank goodness for this job. Colleagues ended up being pretty great friends you know you can hang on to for the rest of your life. I swear, communal countdown to lunchbreak/end of work is probably the best bonding activity ever. Apart from bitching about horrible work experiences.

Work aside, my god, i do miss shopping with sandy/esti/sweej. and i do miss prata with josh/drew. tsk. see, army + work = end of social life. no wonder adults hate their lives. OKAY. i need to sms to arrange prata/shopping trips. and someone please remind me to apply for uni. i might actually forget.

And OMG. I just typed this whole post in under 5minutes. like, type, rephrase, edit, rephrase, retype and blah. haha, my god, i actually type super fast now (not to mention major typo errors all over)

Okay, gonna go sleep, i give up waiting for my show, goodness me gracious. Gonna zonk out and die now, so nights!

What's weird about it is where I'm at in the end.

Honestly, xiao long baos are the best thing to ease a bad day at work. Or just to ease off a bad mood day. Open houses were bleah, my brochures were more useful. IT show was strangely fulfilling, especially having adults go "wow, so young still dare to work at call centre". I kinda wanna blog more, but errands are calling out to me, TSK. annoying. k, gotta run, gonna blog when i finally rmb.

And yes rebecca, we need to celebrate pay day =)

just realized i forgot to post about how happy i am abt my results.

just realized i should not scream it out loud.

just realized this makes my post pretty pointless.

just realized, yay me.

=)

Finally back online after so long. Somehow typing this blog post feels like typing those acw notes. Damn, my job is taking over my life.

Gotta say, got to know my batch colleagues better, I'm glad I took up this job.

And ARGH. A's are out in like 14hours. Stress, fear, anxiety, . I could blog on for days, but nope, too freaking stressed out now to do anything properly.

But still, t'was nice to go out for temp staff dinner on tues, outing with councillors + shopping, and movie with the ding dongs. Hopefully, those tear ducts take off day tmr.

Okay, its official. I'm obsessed with work.

Btw, in case you havent realized. I is be freaking out right now. ARGH!

You know, sitting on that roof that night, really made me think. Everything they've done for me, and how much they actually mean to me. And its moments like this that i'm really glad everything happened the way it did. And the note someone wrote to me, i figured its probably time i stopped running away from it, and just get over it.

Like what shaun said 2 years ago, the fastest way to get rid of a difficult knot is to cut it. Better still, you get two strings instead of one.

*insert really gigantic smiley here*

and now for the real deal, holy #@$%^^$&*, A level results out in 5 days!

Okay, this is it. I'm taking this plunge on thursday, after 2 months of waiting. Someone wish me luck.

But yea, Vic's right. The toughest thing ever is let someone go, when you love that person but you know you two can never be together.

Still, I never thought I'll meet someone else that can make me feel like that.

Why the hell am I saying all this?

T'was the nicest day at work so far. That's probably the best birthday present actually, given the amount of terrible calls i had to handle over the past one week. And crapping with my colleagues over a tub of cornflakes sure helped.

Normally, I'd be upset over spending my birthday like this. Normally, I'd be jealous, why others have nice birthday celebrations, while I'm stuck working. But not normally, this job made me appreciate so many things more now. Like how Cleon kept msging me to keep me amused, celeste's non-stop, all day sure reply chatting service, shaun's random invite for a day out, sandy and sweej's double call + apology, nadia's smiley overload msgs, and all the "i'll-date-you-on-your-off-day-k?" msgs are more than enough.

So next week's jammed packed, probably not gonna get much sleep. Darn. I'm starting to get used to this life actually. The job's actually getting fine. I mean, even my sups say that its alright to get cursed at, just ignore them. Did I mention I've got awesome supervisors? Okay, now i will. Did i mention my colleagues are fully awesome? Okay, they are! Was gonna say especially some people, but i realized its almost all. Lol. I actually like my job for the colleagues.

But more importantly this job, i swear, taught me more than school ever had in 12 years. that people aren't very nice, and will stop at nothing to achieve their means. and it taught me that clashing head on, like how I always did, doesnt work in the real world. and it just taught me one thing, hang on to what you have, cos it might all be gone in the next second.

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Well, part 2 of blogging. This is actually quite fun. Saw photos here and there, just replied to everyone who wished me happy birthday on facebook, gonna start on the twitter list. kinda feel bad that sandy feels bad. and texting vic was well, maybe i shouldnt have.

green book is feeling a little neglected, i guess i do need to pen some thoughts in. mom gave angpow, which i secretly like best. and shit, i'm still missing you. yes, keep guessing who this is.

shirley just texted me, that bimbo forgot the time difference again i guess. now that i think bout it, it's been 8 years. omg, wtf, 8 years?! okay, time to plan a flight to auckland to visit. somehow, if only, maybe, oh well, never mind. thanks anw, you're probably the only one reading this blog anw.

oh yes, wanted to say something, forgot what it is, tried to remember, failed, and not gonna bother.

and so to end off, and summarize:

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to Lenna~

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Hi, Welcome to M1, my name is Lennart, how may I help you?
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