gosh. how many months has it been?

just randomly sitting at home, dreading book in (as usual), and i just went to re-read some old posts. and i realized i really miss my pre-NS days. freedom and proper management are but things of the past.

bah. i am just really bored and irritated about booking in now. bleah.

Okay. A really late post while waiting for my korean show to start & I secretly know I'm going to die at work tomorrow.

Suddenly I feel so detached from the world. its like work, home, sleep, work, home, sleep. Gosh. And I'm thoroughly bushed at the end of each day.

And just wanted to rant about some inner angst about the impression people have of temp staff. Especially for students who work temp jobs. My god. The amount of judgement you receive when people know you're a student. stupid customers. maybe like what alex said, no one else will ever understand the shit you go through. I mean, just cos we're temp/students doesn't mean we suck. Hello, i believe my colleagues and i give better service than a lot of the permanent staff out there. And the worst thing is, just because you're lucky/insensible enough to deny yourself a taste of what regular adults go through, while signing up for internships/slack at home while your family supports you, doesnt make you better than the others. Hate it when people use their better financial status to judge others. Its going through full-time of such things that i realized why working experience is so impt. So those rich kids out there can continue deluding themselves that their purchased internship/education will secure them a good life.

Okay, inner angst released. Now I'm a happier person. Honestly, thank goodness i took up this job. Sucky I know. But the stuff I've learnt is so much more. Most importantly, I figured, the most important thing a person can do is to be human first, and customer second. I guess everyone is so caught up trying to be an effective customer that they all forgot they're human.

And thank goodness for this job. Colleagues ended up being pretty great friends you know you can hang on to for the rest of your life. I swear, communal countdown to lunchbreak/end of work is probably the best bonding activity ever. Apart from bitching about horrible work experiences.

Work aside, my god, i do miss shopping with sandy/esti/sweej. and i do miss prata with josh/drew. tsk. see, army + work = end of social life. no wonder adults hate their lives. OKAY. i need to sms to arrange prata/shopping trips. and someone please remind me to apply for uni. i might actually forget.

And OMG. I just typed this whole post in under 5minutes. like, type, rephrase, edit, rephrase, retype and blah. haha, my god, i actually type super fast now (not to mention major typo errors all over)

Okay, gonna go sleep, i give up waiting for my show, goodness me gracious. Gonna zonk out and die now, so nights!

What's weird about it is where I'm at in the end.

Honestly, xiao long baos are the best thing to ease a bad day at work. Or just to ease off a bad mood day. Open houses were bleah, my brochures were more useful. IT show was strangely fulfilling, especially having adults go "wow, so young still dare to work at call centre". I kinda wanna blog more, but errands are calling out to me, TSK. annoying. k, gotta run, gonna blog when i finally rmb.

And yes rebecca, we need to celebrate pay day =)

just realized i forgot to post about how happy i am abt my results.

just realized i should not scream it out loud.

just realized this makes my post pretty pointless.

just realized, yay me.

=)

Finally back online after so long. Somehow typing this blog post feels like typing those acw notes. Damn, my job is taking over my life.

Gotta say, got to know my batch colleagues better, I'm glad I took up this job.

And ARGH. A's are out in like 14hours. Stress, fear, anxiety, . I could blog on for days, but nope, too freaking stressed out now to do anything properly.

But still, t'was nice to go out for temp staff dinner on tues, outing with councillors + shopping, and movie with the ding dongs. Hopefully, those tear ducts take off day tmr.

Okay, its official. I'm obsessed with work.

Btw, in case you havent realized. I is be freaking out right now. ARGH!

You know, sitting on that roof that night, really made me think. Everything they've done for me, and how much they actually mean to me. And its moments like this that i'm really glad everything happened the way it did. And the note someone wrote to me, i figured its probably time i stopped running away from it, and just get over it.

Like what shaun said 2 years ago, the fastest way to get rid of a difficult knot is to cut it. Better still, you get two strings instead of one.

*insert really gigantic smiley here*

and now for the real deal, holy #@$%^^$&*, A level results out in 5 days!

Okay, this is it. I'm taking this plunge on thursday, after 2 months of waiting. Someone wish me luck.

But yea, Vic's right. The toughest thing ever is let someone go, when you love that person but you know you two can never be together.

Still, I never thought I'll meet someone else that can make me feel like that.

Why the hell am I saying all this?